Not Again | Catch All for Ash

[applechemist]

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[voidbreaker]

I did say it's about 14 years late to really have an impact.

[applechemist]

And I said even if it was a long time ago, it's still sad.

[voidbreaker]

You just saw it though. 'Course you think it's sad.

[applechemist]

... But it's not like you ever forget, is it? There are plenty of things that happened a long time ago. And when I'm reminded of them, I still get sad.

[voidbreaker]

[ ... ]

Sure. Not everyone gets sad about it though.

[applechemist]

It doesn't matter how everyone feels. Just you. It's your memory, after all.

[ ... ]

So if you say it isn't sad... Then I guess... [ she just can't fathom it?? ]

[voidbreaker]

[ replace the s with another letter and that about sums up his feelings on it. ]

Old injuries don't normally hurt years down the line. I guess it's kinda the same thing.

[applechemist]

... I don't think that's a good comparison.

[voidbreaker]

Don't really know how else to explain it. 'Sides, it's a pretty personalised issue, so I'll work out how to deal with it myself.

[applechemist]

That sounds pretty lonely, though. Do you at least have people - friends back home - who can help you deal with it...?

[voidbreaker]

Nope.

Hamel's classified. And even if people do find out, it's none of their business how I deal with it, or what I do about it.

[applechemist]

I... I see.

You really like to keep things to yourself, don't you?

[voidbreaker]

Everyone has secrets.

[ that's a yes. ]

It's not like anyone else can change anything, so why air all my dirty laundry?

[applechemist]

[ For emotional support???? is this a trick question??? ]

Because people care about you...?

[voidbreaker]

[ sounds??? false??? there is no therapy in zemuria ]

On some level, sure.

[applechemist]

[ In what is probably not the most tactful response, Escha laughs lightly? ]

That's a weird response.

[voidbreaker]

How so?

[applechemist]

It's just a funny qualifier to put on something so simple.

[voidbreaker]

It's not like anyone knew, or I could share what happened. Why would expect people to know enough to sympathise in the first place?

[applechemist]

It's more like... When you do tell people, they're going to sympathize.

[voidbreaker]

...

Sure. But that's... more for them than for me.

[applechemist]

Is it?

[voidbreaker]

Do you feel better after, y'know. Sympathising?

[applechemist]

Not really. You don't seem to feel any better, so... No.

[voidbreaker]

Some people might. Y'know, pat a guy on the head, say "there there" and feel better than they helped.

[ he shrugs, again. for lack of anything more to say on that. ]

It's not complicated. I was three. I'm mad about it, I wanted to know the truth about it but... it's kinda like a story that happened to some other kid at the same time.